post new year's

so i've been telling myself i should write. but did i? noooo, of course not.

i'm supposed to take some time and reflect on last year, and somehow make resolutions, not necessarily stick to them for good, but you know, at least there was the effort to start.

due to lack of serious thought on things, here are some items off the top of my head:

1. cut down, seriously, on smoking. really, you know its affecting your health but do you lessen the ciggy breaks? no need for cold turkey quitting. a simple cut down will do wonders. (yes i'm trying to convince myself)

2. exercise - sign up for muay thai - maybe by march/april. hey, i'm keeping track of my expenses, and i have stuff charged to my credit card til march. so it has to be april then. or mid march after my credit card cut off

3. get on top of my game again at work. one year of "rest" isn't doing me any good. yes, i know you don't intend to stay in SG forever and ever, and there's work waiting for you when you go back to MNL, but that doesn't mean you should be slacking off. get back that drive, that magis. yes, you're uninspired, but that shouldn't be a hindrance. find the passion again.

4. dive - you've never gone back down after you got your license. its time to dive again. diving's supposed to be therapeutic (okay i think i made that up), but it should be able to calm your nerves watching all the fish and the seaweeds sway in the current right? plus, you have to train your mind to be calm and not panic. so diving should be good mind-exercise :D

5. photography - i HAVE been lazy to shoot. its so bad that even i am unimpressed by my photos. it used to give me so much pleasure to review the photos afterwards. you have tons of cameras, film cams, that you never use anymore. go out and waste film. life's too short.

6. go out and get some sun - stop it with the staying home on weekends catching up on series crap. really, life doesn't happen on the screen. it happens outside.

7. reach out to family and friends - yup, since you've moved, you've distanced yourself to friends and family. thats not good.

8. be full-time jaded - i've realized that i'm not as jaded and cynical as i thought. because even if i say it, in my heart, i know that i'm still a hopeless hopeful romantic. i thought that i'll still find someone. BUT that was last year. i had hoped that my big move would bring about new changes. but since it didn't, then i'm back to being full-time jaded. i think i'm also too idealistic. i want the fairytale, greatest love story, a love that lasts forever kind. but that doesn't happen anymore. no siree. there's no such thing. all this grand gestures that hollywood feeds us is just that - stuff that only happens in movies, staged, rehearsed, fluffed up for entertainment's sake. which explains the stories that i do get, kalokohan at katatawanan.

anyway, simple lang naman ang dapat na take-away eh. as what my poster says, choose life. choose your future.