and so i texted him first last night. again. i figured, what the hell right? he's leaving soon anyway. whatever i do now will be irrelevant in one month's time.

i asked if he was in rockwell (knowing he'd be coz he had jiujitsu class). after ten thousand years, he finally replied. okay i think class ends at 930pm anyway.

he said haha yeah why? you saw my car? thought bubble - uhm no, because i don't know all your cars, more so their plate numbers. so nagfeeling na naman di ba?

anyway i said nope, its tuesday and you have bjj. and he replied ah yes! day of injuries!

i replied saying haha planet jupiter doesn't have muay thai :( do you need to be a member of rockwell club to join classes? then he said something like its in the flyer of planet jupiter that there should be muay thai and that you don't need to be a member to join a class.

then i said, nope they only have boxing, filipino martial arts and jazz hiphop. are you still at the gym? where is it here? this was the only time i gave any indication that i was also in the area. he replied saying ay sana you said earlier. i'm leaving the parking lot. san ka?

so i said sango. up to what time is it open? i can still go and check. at that point, i stood up and left the table, about to go back inside the mall. then he calls me. i think i asked where the gym is and he said that he can drop me off and that i should go out already. so i ask, uh why, where are you? and he said outside waiting. ahh okay, wait lang. hrrmp.

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waiting mode

dear universe,

i hope this thing finally pushes through. there's just been one too many things that unhappened the last couple of years. varying degrees of expectations, from almost none to all out. varying states of existence, from almost there you can grasp it with your hand to a fleeting moment, almost a whisper in the air. hints but nothing too tangible.

its been the same story, over and over. the same mistakes on repeat. i've plateaued and become stagnant.

time to break the cycle. i need this. i need to get away from it all. i need a time out.