i can be a damsel in distress. i can be needy. i'm not always so strong. i get scared too. in fact, i'm such a coward. sometimes, i do need somebody to be there for me. not all the time, sure, but for the most part hopefully.
so what the hell is wrong with me??? there was another nice guy who seemed really interested. and there i go with being a jerk, again.
pero naman kasi, listen first. he's not gonna be here. he's going back to his country. i think i'm at the point where i need someone who can be around. all the time. if i'm going to embark on this thing, then i want to do it full on.
that's why the b??? thing didn't work out (not because he's going to sydney but his fault mostly because he was an ass). or the n???? thing (because he was just being a normal nice guy and had nothing to do with liking me). and now the m?????? thing (because he is going back to his country anyway).
its just "new" to me that if i say i don't want something, he'll take it away. or that if i say i'm going to smoke outside for a while, that he'll go outside and accompany me because he doesn't want me to go alone. or that if i say lets dance, that he won't dance with anyone else. or where he'd be half asleep but wake up to say have a nice day. or for example say that he's thinking of looking for work in SG.
(why do people use that very loosely though?? i'm pretty irked. coz really, if they do move and things don't work out, i have to put it in my guilt bag :P)
that aside, yes, i agree that those were sweet things. very sweet actually. and he seemed like a really nice guy. so what's wrong with me????
its just that... no one's done anything for me for a long long long while. sa totoo naman, KSP talaga ako eh. i crave attention, because i don't get any :D well, not exactly true, but mostly from the wrong type of guys - like old married men, young-ish married men, or gays.
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