i always do this no? why can't i see a good thing even if it hits me in the eye? either i mess it up or i run away from it. its like i don't really wanna be happy. because if i finally am, then i don't have the right to complain.
work, personal. its the same shit. my judgment is getting really really bad.
(disclaimer: nothing really terrible happened that made me come to this conclusion, its just a pile up of 'small' things over the past weeks, months, etc).
i dunno. just that i 'ran away' without really thinking about my next step. all i knew that time was i needed the break, i needed this change. without preparing myself for the change. ergo, things are the same. but in a different place.
i need my drive back. i hope i don't mess this one up.
