on what ifs and settling

two years later, the same thing happened.

might be the world telling me to finally DECIDE and do something, because until I have this personal road map resolved, the same thing will keep on happening.

maybe He's testing me not to be distracted, and to consciously choose that path I said I will take.

priorities can sometimes change. i'm at that stage in my life when I should reconsider and re-evaluate my priorities, my plan. and yes, because we are human, and a woman at that, there are certain sensitivities that need to be considered as it will soon be quite urgent.

what if this was His way of making me rethink my current plan? that even though I had somewhat accepted the fact, deep inside, I know I still want it... and this could be my way to get it?

so many what ifs. can't we just have both options open? do we really have to give up one thing for the other? can't we really have it all? is this what settling is all about?